There is a tendency of the Mind to go all over the place, especially after vivid dreams that are full of faces from the Past. I had such dreams last night, seeing people I haven’t seen in a long time or faces that I wish I do get a chance to see soon enough. I am sure that we all have these kind of dreams and we go into a Nostalgic mood. My Mind, however, tends to into overdrive.
Overdrive about a lot of things. I tend to prefer staying on my own, with just me, but my dreams seem to be a reminder that I miss company as well. The company of friends, of people who I can talk to, of memories that although cannot be brought to life, can be increased in number. So that is the mood I woke up in today and my song choices have gone that appropriate way. Crown the Empire, Bring Me the Horizon and songs from Bleach are my go-to choices for music when I feel everything crumbling down. These songs get me pumped and amped up, elevating my mood back up again. But, today, as I type, I feel the unease settle in again and again. Today, it seems this feeling will not shake off.
After my close proximity to Death, I don’t like feeling this way. It feels like all the progress I have made, will unravel and I will go back to where I started from. And believe me when I say, I do not want to go back to where I started from.
I bid adieu for now, hoping to return with a better mindset for a more optimistic and positive blog post in the evening!